The GD GD Test.

No, that's not a typo. I'm just having a down week so far, and the GD test is the reason why, landing it at the top of my "things that are upsetting me" list.

As it turns out, I failed my gestational diabetes screening. I know I shouldn't be so upset by this - in fact, it seems a lot of people fail the 1-hour but not the 3-hour. But, for one reason or another, I am. Mainly, I have to go in Monday to take the 3-hour since that's the only place I can fit it into my schedule before my 30-week appointment next week, and so I have to be downtown for this test by 8am. With Ava. And then sit at the lab with her for three hours, through four blood draws, and while I'm crashing from this drink that made me feel so amazingly sick because this baby hates sugar, but I'm afraid to take the Zofran beforehand again, since I should've passed with flying colors.  Basically, I'm just fed up. I've had the crappiest pregnancy with this never-ending nausea, and the thought of having to go on the GD diet and do finger pricks multiple times per day and freak out even more about my weight sounds absolutely awful. I'm so glad this is my last pregnancy and not my first, or we'd certainly have an only child. Hell, we nearly had an only child anyhow, and A's pregnancy was a breeze compared to this.

Anyways, I'm just venting. I'm upset about failing the test and having to redo it and also having to redo it with Ava, who understandably is going to be bored and over it by the first fifteen minutes and I'm going to be feeling awful, and I start back to work at my second job next week and I'm just so, so, so tired as it is and I just feel so overwhelmed. I know I should be grateful for good maternity care and our incomes and so many other things - and I am. I'm just wallowing today :(