Monday.

I'm posting this from the waiting room at the lab, where I've just finished 100g of glucose and 1 of my 4 blood draws, so keep in mind that whatever I'm saying is being fueled in great part by hunger and sugar :) Not necessarily how you want to start your Monday morning off, but I'm a firm believe in getting stuff you dread out of the way so you can focus on the better things to come, so here I am, bright dull-eyed and bushy not-so-perky tailed. Just two and a half hours to go....

I am really, really hoping the results will come back in my favor, but if not, we'll deal with it. I know GD isn't the end of the world or anything, but with how restrictive this pregnancy has been, the thought of facing more restrictions just really doesn't appeal to me whatsoever. Oh well, though. You win some, you lose some.

This Wednesday is my 30-week appointment, where we'll also be going over my test results from this morning, and I'll be asking my doctor about why I'm itching so severely. I mean, it's intense. Like, keep me up at night because my hands and feet and neck itch so terribly I can't sleep type intense. So that's fun, too. Basically, my body is just up in the air about pregnancy. SO GLAD this is my last. You have no idea. 65 days, y'all. Not sure if you get to deliver earlier with GD than my 39-week repeat cesarean, but that could be a silver lining, yes?

Also, I've been dealing with some severe pica. As it turns out, I'm severely anemic, so that's probably a major part of it, but still - could I please catch a break? I'm kind of over it :)

As for the rest of this week, I return to my second job tomorrow morning, and while I can't wait to see the girls and the family (and neither can Ava), I'm just so bone tired these days, I'm feeling overwhelmed at the thought of working more than I currently am. Thankfully, though, my other days will be a bit lighter with work once school starts, so hopefully I can slip into a good routine and sail through the last nine weeks. A girl could dream, right?

So that's where we're at. It'd been a while since I updated, and basically, that's in the interest of not wanting to be complaining and complaining all day every day. Hope everyone else out there is doing well, and if you're pregnant, too, that it's going better for you than for me :)

The GD GD Test.

No, that's not a typo. I'm just having a down week so far, and the GD test is the reason why, landing it at the top of my "things that are upsetting me" list.

As it turns out, I failed my gestational diabetes screening. I know I shouldn't be so upset by this - in fact, it seems a lot of people fail the 1-hour but not the 3-hour. But, for one reason or another, I am. Mainly, I have to go in Monday to take the 3-hour since that's the only place I can fit it into my schedule before my 30-week appointment next week, and so I have to be downtown for this test by 8am. With Ava. And then sit at the lab with her for three hours, through four blood draws, and while I'm crashing from this drink that made me feel so amazingly sick because this baby hates sugar, but I'm afraid to take the Zofran beforehand again, since I should've passed with flying colors.  Basically, I'm just fed up. I've had the crappiest pregnancy with this never-ending nausea, and the thought of having to go on the GD diet and do finger pricks multiple times per day and freak out even more about my weight sounds absolutely awful. I'm so glad this is my last pregnancy and not my first, or we'd certainly have an only child. Hell, we nearly had an only child anyhow, and A's pregnancy was a breeze compared to this.

Anyways, I'm just venting. I'm upset about failing the test and having to redo it and also having to redo it with Ava, who understandably is going to be bored and over it by the first fifteen minutes and I'm going to be feeling awful, and I start back to work at my second job next week and I'm just so, so, so tired as it is and I just feel so overwhelmed. I know I should be grateful for good maternity care and our incomes and so many other things - and I am. I'm just wallowing today :(