Friday, July 16, 2010


I have a confession to make. Motherhood, in all its glory, has turned me into a big ol' flake.

It's not bad enough that I'm pressed for time in a way I didn't think possible. I mean, yeah, I may be having a hard time continuously adjusting my schedule to incorporate A's shifting schedule, etc., but seriously, if any of you happen to need me to be somewhere, for your own sake and mine, tell me you need me there about half an hour earlier. Then I might have some semblance of a possibility of being there.

Not only that, but I can't remember ANYTHING. I've been meaning to send an email for DAYS, friends, and only now am I thinking about it while sitting at a computer. Sadly enough, without this text to remind me, I'd surely forget again before the end of this post.

Is everyone like this once they have a baby? Is this pregnancy-turned-new-mom brain, or is it me?

It really may just be me. I've been feeling extremely overwhelmed lately, for so many reasons. Between mommyhood, keeping house (I never understood the necessity of housekeepers pre-Ava, but now I'd love to have one, if only so I could spend more of my time at home playing with A and spoiling her beyond belief!), normal relationship upkeep, writing, blogging, cooking, etc - I just feel so insanely chaotic. While I could cut certain things out, I need my down time to blog or write or read or whatnot so that I feel like myself. So much of my life revolves around A and tending to A, feeding A, getting/keeping A asleep, etc, that I need the me time in order to not completely lose myself to my mommy role, ya know? Unfortunately so often that "me time" is granted at the sacrifice of the time I *should* be sleeping. How do you other mommies balance this?

Speaking of, I am going to do a bit of reading and then have an early bedtime. I've been exhausted lately, and am hoping to catch up on some sleep this weekend.

On a side note, any mommies in the Austin area, particularly North Austin? I've met two great fellow mamas through my blog, and love connecting with more! If you're not in the area, feel free to comment/shoot me an email anyhow - I love meeting new blog friends and sharing in this motherhood experience!!


  1. Oh my gosh, I was seriously just about to post on the exact same thing!! My "mommy brain" is ten times as bad as my "pregnancy brain." If I don't set reminders in my phone, make lists for everything and put post it's all over the kitchen, there's no way in the world I'll remember. The other day, I made breakfast that I forgot to eat until after dinner! I feel completely absent minded all the time!! SO glad I'm not the only one! :)

  2. I feel ya! I feel like my life revolves around feeding Jack. Whether it be nursing (which I love and am not complaining about), pumping, or making his baby food, a lot of my time is spent feeding this kid. I usually cook his food while he's napping or after he's gone to bed. I also pump at night before I go to bed. So when he's sleeping and I could be doing something for myself, I'm cooking. With that said, I absolutely love that I am able to give Jack breastmilk (and haven't had to supplement yet!) and make his food. Even if I do nothing else productive, I feel great doing those things. So in a way, I am doing something for myself. I think. All I know is that I'm tired and need to stop staying up so late!

    I am also more forgetful than I was pre-pregnancy, but it's gotten better. A lot better! I think you should allow yourself to let go of household chores though. A slightly dirty/messy house never hurt anyone! It certainly doesn't hurt us. ;)

  3. oh how i can totally relate! i even forget what i was going to say at times and feel like a total dork! i'm still trying to adjust to schedules. i try to feed him at the same time each day but that depends on when he gets up. so i don't have too much of a schedule. i just go with the daily flow. i'm trying to balance, motherhood, work, wedding preparations, and me time. oh and to clean the house too. i'm totally overwhelmed these days. i have to get me time or i will lose it.

  4. Getting some Mommy this stage in the game usually involves finding some willing person to watch Ava while Mommy gets time to herself, even if it's you getting to go upstairs ALONE to sit in front of the computer and do whatever for a few hours.

    Right now, all I can think is that poor J doesn't get any Daddy time for himself because he and D are taking care of bebbe.

    And Mommy's stuck far, far away typing on the computer when she'd rather be home playing on the floor with M and her toys. Her toys consist of whatever Mommy is using at the time, plus her favoritest toy ever, a talking purple dog.

  5. I wish I could tell you that the brain comes back, but I would be lying. My "baby" will be three in two weeks , and so far my brain is still AWOL. I haven't seen hide nor hair of it since 2003 when the oldest was born. Its hard work functioning without full capacity.

    And girl do I wish I lived closer!


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