I have a confession to make. Motherhood, in all its glory, has turned me into a big ol' flake.
It's not bad enough that I'm pressed for time in a way I didn't think possible. I mean, yeah, I may be having a hard time continuously adjusting my schedule to incorporate A's shifting schedule, etc., but seriously, if any of you happen to need me to be somewhere, for your own sake and mine, tell me you need me there about half an hour earlier. Then I might have some semblance of a possibility of being there.
Not only that, but I can't remember ANYTHING. I've been meaning to send an email for DAYS, friends, and only now am I thinking about it while sitting at a computer. Sadly enough, without this text to remind me, I'd surely forget again before the end of this post.
Is everyone like this once they have a baby? Is this pregnancy-turned-new-mom brain, or is it me?
It really may just be me. I've been feeling extremely overwhelmed lately, for so many reasons. Between mommyhood, keeping house (I never understood the necessity of housekeepers pre-Ava, but now I'd love to have one, if only so I could spend more of my time at home playing with A and spoiling her beyond belief!), normal relationship upkeep, writing, blogging, cooking, etc - I just feel so insanely chaotic. While I could cut certain things out, I need my down time to blog or write or read or whatnot so that I feel like myself. So much of my life revolves around A and tending to A, feeding A, getting/keeping A asleep, etc, that I need the me time in order to not completely lose myself to my mommy role, ya know? Unfortunately so often that "me time" is granted at the sacrifice of the time I *should* be sleeping. How do you other mommies balance this?
Speaking of, I am going to do a bit of reading and then have an early bedtime. I've been exhausted lately, and am hoping to catch up on some sleep this weekend.
On a side note, any mommies in the Austin area, particularly North Austin? I've met two great fellow mamas through my blog, and love connecting with more! If you're not in the area, feel free to comment/shoot me an email anyhow - I love meeting new blog friends and sharing in this motherhood experience!!